There are so many things to thank you for. I really cannot even begin to articulate, let alone put into words.
I thank you for coming to me in my dream last night. We talked, but mostly you talked. As the saying in the UK goes, ‘She can talk for England.’ So it made sense that you talked. But I listened. You confirmed to me that what I sense is true. That you are with dad but you are always with me. You are with all of us. I will do my best to take comfort in this.
I thank you for coming to me in my dream last night. We talked, but mostly you talked. As the saying in the UK goes, ‘She can talk for England.’ So it made sense that you talked. But I listened. You confirmed to me that what I sense is true. That you are with dad but you are always with me. You are with all of us. I will do my best to take comfort in this.
I know you sit with me as I weep. I know you were there the moment I heard the words that you had passed away. I know you picked me up off the floor. I know you tell me how strong I am. I do not feel strong. I feel weak and broken. I hear you say, ‘It is ok to be sad. It is ok to feel how you feel. Do not try and be strong for anyone. You have what it takes to keep going. You have what it takes to keep our legacy alive through you. You all will have to deal with a lot of tasks but do not forget to laugh, do not forget to love. LOOK UP LISA! Notice the beauty around you. Do not take anything for granted. Most of all, BE GRATEFUL. Live a life of gratitude.“
I am trying mom. I really am.
We are all in shock, we are all heartbroken. We will never be the same. Lewis and I are sick of writing Eulogies. We quit!
I know we are connected. I know you are here. But it is not the same. As the granddaughters have said, ‘I miss her laugh.’
The thought of walking into my childhood home, which is a shrine to the life my parents created, will be soul-crushing. It will be the hardest thing I will ever do, to date.
You and dad need to keep visiting me in my dreams. I know you are here. No matter what people believe, I know you are. I sense it. I see it. I feel it. It is true.
I will write more but it will be saved for your eulogy. The day I once again get up in front of those whom you loved beyond measure and those who love you beyond all time and space, and share some memories, some tears, and some laughter. But mostly honor a woman who lived her life better than most.
I would love for you to share this with someone who would benefit.
